No matter what

No matter what I do, no matter what I try, I can’t escape the anxiety and depression.

Its irrational.

Its frustrating.

Alcohol free, anti-depressants, counselling, meditation, exercise.

None of it has worked for more than a few weeks.

More people are worse off than I am.

But here I am.

Scared I’m getting very close to the place I was, mentally, 20 years ago.