Mega stress at work. If it could go wrong, it has. The usual covid stuff too.
Not once have I thought I need a drink.
Being alcohol free has allowed the mental space to explore other ways of dealing with stress. Allowed “extra” time in my day to meditate, exercise, read, sleep etc.
Its also given me the clarity to realise that I’ve been through worse. Also I choose to do this. I choose the pressure and stress.
When I was drinking I’d whinge and moan about it. Not realising the alcohol wasn’t helping and that its all of my own choosing.
I now ask myself if I’m okay with the choice. At the moment I am. There may come a day when I’m not. So grateful to be able to choose. The memories are still fresh from when I wasn’t so fortunate – that stress was so much worse, to the point where I actually believed my only choice was to attempt suicide.